jesus loves you: Archive

i have a lot of regrets this is one of them lmao i am so emo jokessss

Jan 25th

i hate having this weird panic-ky moment or...

i think i can do some work now……..

Jan 25th

i had a weird breathing problem thing

but i think i am ok right now at least for now i don’t know i still don’t know whether or not i’m being dramatic or just seeking attention……………………….. except no one knows lol i feel stupid not knowing

Jan 25th

can i just get meds so i can stop thinking like...

i thought it was a 3am thoughts thing but it also happens during the day to think i felt pretty optimistic and happy to get involved with things just this early afternoon only to feel like shit all over again for the past 2 hours

Jan 25th

i get into these fits where i know it’s suppose to comfort me, like knowing that there is help available and but i just get pissed and im not sure why because i gt overwhelmed and scared and embarrassed for feeling this way when nothing bad has ever happened. I JUST FUCK I MAKE THE SAME TEXT POSTS ALL THE TIME TO FIGURE IT OUT BUT I AM NOT ELOQUENT AT ALL

Jan 25th

nothing even ever happens in my life like lmao i don’t have a tragic story or whatever triggering it just god i just am always hopeless it’s ridiculous like i am never optimistic well i do but it’s temporary and then suddenly i just want to jump off a building sometimes when it gets to a low point i imagine myself just jumping off the skytrain tracks and hope i get hit ...

Jan 25th

my posts are so fucking embarassing my trai nof thought is stupid i am so fucking stupid and useless g o d

Jan 25th

this depression shit is so cliche like fuck it’s a phase it’s stupid and i am being overdramatic whatever

Jan 25th

canucks win and i feel like fucking SHIT

Jan 25th

god i am a dramatic cunt and i hate all of you

fuck you i am the post fucking shit piss fucking person rn like fuck you i want to fucking punch you in the face right now i have anger problems to. good thing you fucking live in cali you fucking dumbass cunt. i’d love to give you a migraine

Jan 25th

fine

fcuking kill yourself then you fucking cunt people like you makes ME want to kill myself instead of fucking trying fuck you. burn yourself.

Jan 25th

oh man

i was so close bordering thoughts of my uselessness/pity party/hopelessness i don’t like saying suicidal thoughts because it’s overrated and gross hopelessness i hate why i already am and i why i think everyone just hates me like bye

Jan 2nd

i am so fucking pissed

that i can’t unlike old posts what the fuck fuck you tumblr i liked some ugly, crap shit come on

Jan 1st

o yay happy new year!!

THE WORLD IS GOING TO END, first thing i say for this year 2012 i predict you suck again s’long as im still living

Jan 1st

lol so like

friend’s high as shit right so should i ask her if she is im kind of tired. im a shit 20 yr old i should just die

Jan 1st

i cant like

take this website srsly like srs

Dec 31st

so dudes by dudes i mean mainly me, only me

yeah anyway, here’s the dealio: it’s like new year’s eve, earlier like few weeks back or something me and friend were all like o yeah we are totes gon get drunk and shiet and ballin’ swag sacks right but then like boyf gets in picture his name sounds like a dog’s but don’t tell cuz she doesn’t know i think this anyway so basically asks me o what do u...

Dec 31st

dude

i am done. i cant understand shit today. at all. holy.

Dec 3rd

i can't function like a proper adult to save my...

if i wasn’t in school god help me

Nov 21st

but i cant stop crying and being sad over things for no damn reason it cant possibly be normal that sometimes i find comfort in sucidal thoughts

Nov 17th

maybe it’s just a phase. probably, but i feel it’s never gone this low before. im probably just being dramatic, but i’ve been feeling like this for awhile now.

Nov 17th

im not even interested in designing anything and that was a developing passion. i dont know anymore

Nov 17th

it’s really sad it’s getting to the point where im not going to give anymore shits this semester. like i wouldnt care if i failed that damn class again and that accounting class too. might as well drop out. i cant make up my mind anymore.

Nov 17th

taking this math course for second time, doing better as in… passable, but barely accounting can choke on dicks. it’s so boring it makes me cry and stab things constantly sad, frustrated, hopeless, tired only thing worth getting up for are canucks games when they win, i get that momentary bliss and then things go back to being hopeless i feel tired and hopeless sometimes for no...

Nov 17th

every fucking thought in my head is driving me...

every fucking thing everything god fucking thing

Nov 15th

1 tag

Nov 7th

99 notes

ive never felt so pathetic in my life

Nov 1st

fuck

i want my vodka back fuck these people

Oct 31st

i fucking hate all business classes

holy shit let me kill myself i dont give a crap about how practical this shit is i dont care ill die early to care

Oct 31st

fuck im so frustrated with this creativity block

how am i supposed to be a graphic designer when i hate nearly everyone in my program i wish they all died fuck them

Oct 24th

i just hate how something i just watch and not contribute to fills such a large hole/part of my heart and hurts when it gets stomped on. it’s all i have.

Oct 19th

2 tags

Sep 30th

9,112 notes

i swear to god im going to have a mental breakdown

Aug 9th

im not really in that longing for someone phase...

been awhile since i’ve really liked anyone. 2 years ago, hmm.

Aug 6th

1 tag

Jannik's Engaged :D

jannikhansen36: Just heard him on the radio saying he’s training in Manitoba for a month (where his fiance and her family live) before heading back to Denmark. :D He’s all grown-up! omg :’D

Aug 6th

35 notes

1 tag

i forgot jannik got signed to a 3 year deal :D

gon get his jersey now^^

Aug 4th

i am so fucking out of it. i just want to pass out...

i always overestimate my ability to function with 1 hr of sleep and coffee, and i don’t get shit done. and i feel queesy. :(

Jul 28th

there's a reason why i never update my lj anymore

everything about my life is: fuck my life, i should just end it; omfg, ugh something really minor that bothers me here; lalalala i suck

Jul 15th

yeah i also dont understand how i have any...

seriously all i do is act like a cunt around here and post useless drivel of bullshit vomit.

Jul 9th

1 tag

every time i feel even the tiniest bit of anxiety,...

sometimes i forget though :(

Jul 3rd

i need a new fuckin load of new stuff to listen...

i’ll miss my babies even more. yah, i call grown men who battle on the ice as part of their profession and to whom i’ve become ridiculously emotionally attached my babies.

Jul 3rd

ive considered going into accounting or finance,...

i like posting my thoughts here than twitter tbh

Jul 2nd