January 2012
15 posts
i have a lot of regrets
this is one of them
lmao i am so emo
jokessss
i hate having this weird panic-ky moment or...
i think i can do some work now……..
i had a weird breathing problem thing
but i think i am ok right now
at least for now
i don’t know i still don’t know whether or not i’m being dramatic or just seeking attention………………………..
except no one knows lol
i feel stupid not knowing
can i just get meds so i can stop thinking like...
i thought it was a 3am thoughts thing but it also happens during the day
to think i felt pretty optimistic and happy to get involved with things just this early afternoon
only to feel like shit all over again for the past 2 hours
i get into these fits where i know it’s suppose to comfort me, like knowing that there is help available and but i just get pissed and im not sure why because i gt overwhelmed and scared and embarrassed for feeling this way when nothing bad has ever happened. I JUST FUCK I MAKE THE SAME TEXT POSTS ALL THE TIME TO FIGURE IT OUT BUT I AM NOT ELOQUENT AT ALL
nothing even ever happens in my life
like lmao
i don’t have a tragic story or whatever triggering it
just god
i just am always hopeless
it’s ridiculous
like i am never optimistic
well i do
but it’s temporary and then suddenly i just want to jump off a building
sometimes when it gets to a low point i imagine myself just jumping off the skytrain tracks and hope i get hit
...
my posts are so fucking embarassing my trai nof thought is stupid
i am so fucking stupid and useless
g o d
this depression shit is so cliche
like fuck
it’s a phase it’s stupid and i am being overdramatic
whatever
canucks win and i feel like fucking SHIT
god i am a dramatic cunt and i hate all of you
fuck you
i am the post fucking shit piss fucking person rn
like fuck you i want to fucking punch you in the face right now
i have anger problems to. good thing you fucking live in cali you fucking dumbass cunt.
i’d love to give you a migraine
fine
fcuking kill yourself then you fucking cunt
people like you makes ME want to kill myself instead of fucking trying
fuck you. burn yourself.
oh man
i was so close
bordering thoughts of my uselessness/pity party/hopelessness
i don’t like saying suicidal thoughts because it’s overrated and gross
hopelessness
i
hate
why i already am
and i why i think everyone just hates me
like
bye
i am so fucking pissed
that i can’t unlike old posts what the fuck
fuck you tumblr
i liked some ugly, crap shit come on
o yay happy new year!!
THE WORLD IS GOING TO END, first thing i say for this year
2012 i predict you suck again
s’long as im still living
lol so like
friend’s high as shit right so
should i ask her if she is
im kind of tired. im a shit 20 yr old i should just die