jesus loves you

nothing even ever happens in my life

like lmao

i don’t have a tragic story or whatever triggering it

just god

i just am always hopeless

it’s ridiculous

like i am never optimistic

well i do

but it’s temporary and then suddenly i just want to jump off a building

sometimes when it gets to a low point i imagine myself just jumping off the skytrain tracks and hope i get hit

but that’d be such an attention whore to do

but thinking about death is comforting

because life is too hard lol

because fuck not having a purpose

im still working on this stupid degree where it will be of no use because i am a failure at my major

i am so untalented it’s just pathetic i have no portfolio and im afraid

but the other day i went to this leadership workshop and then volunteered for this competition thing

but i still felt like shit

i don’t know fuck

and my mom keeps bothering me about that medical thing

ugh i am such a spoiled brat

i should be grateful but all i’ve wanted to do in the past 6 months was kill myself i am so pathetic it’s ridiculous